I will still be thinking of you just the same way. I will still be feeling those butterflies whenever I hear from you. I will still look at you with such wonder of how someone so near to perfection came my way.I will still care for you just the same. I will still pray for you every night before I sleep and hope you’re doing okay and happy. Only difference is you will never know..

I still love him but I know I have to move on. It’s hard but I have to try. I don’t know how he is taking it. All I know we had something special between us. There are times I want to text him I miss you but I stop myself from doing so. I wonder if he still think of me? Wonder if out of the blue he begins to miss me? I would never know the answer to my questions all I can do is wonder… At night before I go to sleep I still think of him and when I wake up in the morning the first thing I do is check to see if I have a text from him.. I get disappointed when I get nothing. Right now probably him getting mad at me is better than not hearing his voice and talking to him. I miss his sleepy voice, his laugh, the way he used to play around and make trouble to me. The way he used to sing to me.. I still listen to the one song he sang to me. I miss how he used to fall asleep talking to me. Miss how he wanted to hear my voice as soon as he wakes up and before he goes to sleep. I miss how he used to leave these little messages on my facebook wall telling me he misses me and love me throughout the day. I miss not having him to miss… Wish I can turn back the time when we were still together I would probably cherish what we had between us more.. Love hurts it really do, but even if it does hurt I’m thankful that he once became a big part of my life and I became a big part of his. I’ll just treasure those memories and keep them in my heart…. Even if we weren’t together long I really did love him more than words can say.. He may not believe it and think it’s all a lie but I hope he knows deep down inside that my feelings for him is true. I know he felt it but he refuse to believe it.. If only it was possible for us to remain friends. That would probably make it much easier for me to deal with this brokeheart of mine..

I miss you a little, I guess you could say, a little too much, a little too often, and a little more each day.

I missss him I really do.. Words can’t describe the way I feel about him. I’m broken and no one can fix me. No one maybe except for him.

If I hated you, i wouldnt feel like this.. I wouldnt cry as much as i do.. and i wouldnt break … but i dont hate you. i only wish i did.

It’s official today marks the last day of my my fairytale. Chad and I broke up. I can’t really describe the way I feel inside. I feel like my heart is being rip out into pieces and I can’t do anything about it. All I can do is sit alone in my room and think about him, about us and what we had together. How could this be that he is not here with me, When I gave him the best of me… When I met him I didn’t expect to fall that hard for him and I also wasn’t prepared to feel the pain I feel when he walked away.. I wish he could see how much this is killing me. People said that I”ll feel better if I don’t think about it…but when you care this much as much as I cared about him…everything reminds me of him… Things on tv, songs I hear and even food I eat… I guess you know it’s true love when it really hurts. I don’t get it… why does nobody see that i am breaking inside… Now I believe the saying The wounds of love can only be healed by the one who made them, because I know the only way for this pain to go away is for him to be here and tell me that everything is okay..I cant wait until the thought of you doesn’t upset me, but feels blank. When you no longer take up hours on my mind. Because right now i’m completely numb..i can’t feel anything..I don’t know how to feel..I am nothing.
I guess there comes a point where you just have to stop trying because it hurts to much to hold on anymore.

Distance doesn’t ruin people’s relationships. You don’t have to see someone everyday to be in love.

I fell in love twice. First it was with you. Second was the person you became when you’re already mine. I love you baby. More than anything and more than anyone could ever love you. If I could walk a thousand miles and turn my back on my family I would. God knows I would. But I can’t just think of myself, I’m sorry. I’m so sorry for making you wait for me. For hurting every minute we are not together. If you ever get tired just let me know. I want you to be happy so if it means I have to let you go and set you free I will.But that wouldn’t mean I don’t care or don’t love you because I know I will always do. You made my life complete and I thank you for that. You told me I can always tell you my thoughts that’s why I’m writing this. It kills me that I can’t be with you, that I can’t hold you. I don’t really know anything and not sure about alot of stuffs but what I do know is that you’re my everything, you’re the reason I’m being strong each day. I love you and that I’m sure about.

I don’t ever want to take you for granted. I don’t ever want to forget what it was like before you or how it would be without you. I don’t ever want let a day go by without telling you how much you mean to me, how deeply I love you, and how much I need you. I don’t ever want you to doubt the way I feel or how much happier I am because of you.

I’m not apologizing for being all these things, but I am not always going to be like this. I will change. Not for you or anyone else, but for myself. Because I’m sick of being the weak one, the nice one, the “good” one, or whatever else you have characterized me as. I’m done.