I will still be thinking of you just the same way. I will still be feeling those butterflies whenever I hear from you. I will still look at you with such wonder of how someone so near to perfection came my way.I will still care for you just the same. I will still pray for you every night before I sleep and hope you’re doing okay and happy. Only difference is you will never know..

I still love him but I know I have to move on. It’s hard but I have to try. I don’t know how he is taking it. All I know we had something special between us. There are times I want to text him I miss you but I stop myself from doing so. I wonder if he still think of me? Wonder if out of the blue he begins to miss me? I would never know the answer to my questions all I can do is wonder… At night before I go to sleep I still think of him and when I wake up in the morning the first thing I do is check to see if I have a text from him.. I get disappointed when I get nothing. Right now probably him getting mad at me is better than not hearing his voice and talking to him. I miss his sleepy voice, his laugh, the way he used to play around and make trouble to me. The way he used to sing to me.. I still listen to the one song he sang to me. I miss how he used to fall asleep talking to me. Miss how he wanted to hear my voice as soon as he wakes up and before he goes to sleep. I miss how he used to leave these little messages on my facebook wall telling me he misses me and love me throughout the day. I miss not having him to miss… Wish I can turn back the time when we were still together I would probably cherish what we had between us more.. Love hurts it really do, but even if it does hurt I’m thankful that he once became a big part of my life and I became a big part of his. I’ll just treasure those memories and keep them in my heart…. Even if we weren’t together long I really did love him more than words can say.. He may not believe it and think it’s all a lie but I hope he knows deep down inside that my feelings for him is true. I know he felt it but he refuse to believe it.. If only it was possible for us to remain friends. That would probably make it much easier for me to deal with this brokeheart of mine..